Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Charlotte

These past nine months have been full of uncertainty for me. Observe:


"I'm sick, stressed, and exhausted. What if I lose this baby?"


"I think it's a boy. I want it to be a girl."


"I'm definitely fatter this time. Is it going to go away?"


"My student teaching starts when?!"


"Another ultrasound? What is this cyst thing?"


"My back hurts so bad I can't even walk, let alone exercise."


"It's so hot. What if I go into labor too early?"


"Seriously, though. I don't fit into anything."


"How is Maddy going to handle a baby in her house?"


"I'm going to love her as much as I love Maddy...right?"


"Breastfeeding? Again?"


And they didn't stop. If anything, they got worse. And before I knew it, the stirrups were coming out, and so was my baby girl. And if you can believe it, in those few seconds, a million new worries came over me.

"Have I been a good mom to Maddy while it was just me and her?"

"Can I really have two kids?"

"What if something goes wrong with the birth?"

"This went by so fast. I'm not ready."

"I'm not ready."

Seriously, you guys. That's what I was thinking. That I just was.not.ready. Pretty much my insecurity at its worst. Sad, but true.

Of course, less than 10 minutes later, I saw this little head of hair for the first time -




and I sobbed. I swear, I cried harder than I did when Madelyn was born.

Because I knew that I had been so, so wrong.

I was totally ready.


And so, without further ado, I present to you

Charlotte Harris


7.31.2011 - 8:05 am

8 lbs 9 oz

20.5 inches long

Pretty and pink and complete with natural highlights


She's lovely. We're home and doing great!

7 comments:

  1. I don't think anything can prepare you for another baby. Even if you already have one.

    She is absolutely beautiful. I cannot wait to hold her!

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  2. she is beautiful!!! I love her name!! You can totally do this b/c you are awesome!!

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  3. Hooray for giving birth!

    She beautiful of course. Cute parents usually make cute babies.

    Congratulations!

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  4. She is beautiful! Good work! We'll have to get together for tummy time play dates!

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  5. That is one of the most beautiful newborns I have ever seen! So much hair!

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  6. Congratulations. She's so cute and very pink. I love her hair.

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